I’m Back!!!

I am finally back and out of the depression that was dragging me down. My husband had a girlfriend, so I am divorcing him now, I finally got a job paying good money, my kids are getting ready to start school, life is for the most part going pretty well. Knock on wood NOW!!

And I am writing again. Of course I am in the middle of getting a Masters degree, what the hell was I thinking?? But I am feeling the creativity that was lacking before. So, I am quite sure I will be posting some poetry soon.

Ciao!

Interesting server problem error page WordPress!

So I was publishing my rants today and got this error page:

“Goshdarnit
Something has gone wrong with our servers. It’s probably Matt’s fault.
We’ve just been notified of the problem.
Hopefully this should be fixed ASAP, so kindly reload in a minute and things should be back to normal.”

Kind of freaked me out. But it is refreshing and entertaining!

IZ

LMAO ~ Limit Exec Pay ~ Just Brilliant I Say!

I read an article this morning and immediately began LMAO: 

“WASHINGTON — The Obama administration plans to limit pay to $500,000 a year for executives of government-assisted financial institutions in a new get-tough approach to bankers and Wall Street, a senior administration official said Tuesday.

Obama plans to announce the new limits with Treasury Secretary Timothy Geithner at the White House on Wednesday.

“If the taxpayers are helping you, then you’ve got certain responsibilities to not be living high on the hog,” President Barack Obama said in an interview with “NBC Nightly News”.”

Love him or hate him, I believe he is right on with this one.  What better way to make these companies accountable than limiting the pay of the top dog.  Seriously when I read it would be limited to 500,000 I thought it should be lower, but if you take into consideration stock options it is probably just about right. 

I can just imagine the execs sitting at their cherry desks, reading their Wall Street Journal this morning and crapping their pants.  Wow, someone is going to hold them accountable.  And what a better way to tell them to figure it out themselves than to limit the top dog’s pay.  Things just got tougher in corporate America.  About time.  I have always wondered just what decisions do you make for that kind of pay???  Seriously what do these guys really do?  I can’t imagine that they make any decisions that are more important that the President of the US.  I was on board with that Senator from Missouri who wanted to limit the exec pay to no more than what the President makes.

And honestly, I would give Obama a raise based on his first two weeks in office.  I really like what I have seen so far.    So that worries me a little.  It would appear that he is moving and shaking things up, which makes me hope that there is tons of extra security for him.  He has far surpassed Bush in just these first few days! 

And I am so sick of this bailout crap.  Seriously, no one is going to bail me out, why should my taxpayer money go to bailout anyone else???  I have paid in since I turned 16, where is my bailout now when I truly need it???  Going to companies who have mismanaged their businesses and have greedy CEO’s.  That is just sick and wrong.  It’s not right, and I hope Obama continues to pursue these execs who have abused the system for so damn long.  The time has come for the little guy to win some. 

Iz

Cash 4 Gold – Wasted my time!

Yes I am poor right now, and yes I fell into the Cash 4 Gold enticement after seeing that woman on TV who is taking a vacation with her $600 bucks.  So I tried it.  I sent them my gold and they sent me $51.  I was like…WTF????  I sent them 10 necklaces, 4 bracelets, 4 charms, 1 ring, 1 pair of earrings, and a watch.  The weight was a little over 1 troy ounce.  But when I called them, they told me that only 24k gold is going for around $900 per troy ounce, not the 10k, 12k and 14k that I sent in. So I told them to send me my stuff back.  Are you kidding me??? 

I clearly don’t understand the gold market, but I have to believe that what I sent in was worth more than $51.   Especially when you call back in and the first question they ask is how much money did you expect to receive.  That question right there tells you that they will rip off thousands of people and if they don’t call back in to negotiate a better price, they are SOL.  And yes I know that they are a business, but come on…   Taking advantage of people during times when the economy is so crappy is just not right.  I only did it because we are so damn poor right now that I could very much use a couple of extra hundred bucks.  I didn’t expect enough to take a vacation, just enough to pay a bill or two.  But $51??? 

So when I send them the check back, they are supposed to send me my stuff back.  I will write later if I get it all back and will be amazed if it is the correct items.  I took pictures and inventory before I sent the stuff, so it could prove interesting.

And just how much stuff did that crazy lady on the TV ads send in???  Hell, she must have a TV size box of gold in order to get that much money!  So, if you were moved by the Ed McMahon and MC Hammer commercial during the Superbowl, just beware, you won’t get anywhere near what you will think you will get.   Or maybe you could if you sent in 24k gold??

Iz

JuiceBoxJungle – Sleeping Around??? Interesting!

So I found a new site since I’ve still got too much time on my hands.  JuiceBoxJungle.com  It’a cool site about parenting these days.  I just watched their latest video about letting your kids sleep in your bed.  Hmmm, interesting.  So here’s the deal.  My kids sleep in my bed every night!!!!!   Their dad travels and is only home on the weekends.  So, of course, they are in my bed every night.  And when dad comes home, our whole house is disrupted!!!  They both get annoyed at giving up their spaces for dad.  It’s kind of funny!  

Can’t say that it’s a good thing, after all, they are 11 & 8, but trying to get them out of my bed is like taking food from the dogs!  It just isn’t easy without suffering!  And yes I have tried many times to get them to sleep in their own rooms.  But my daughter is convinced there is a ghost in her room, and my son always sneaks back in my bed after falling asleep in his own.  Without fail, if I by chance get to sleep alone (Whoppie!!) I wake up in the morning to both of them.  I just don’t know how they do it.  I have even tried sleeping on the couch and in the morning, there they are!

They just don’t sleep!!!  I, on the other hand, LOVE sleep.   Once I am out, I don’t hear a thing.  So catching the sneaky little shi^$s moving in on my territory is just impossible.  My husband just hates it.  He tells me all the time to get them out of our bed, which is easy for him to say while he is away!  And quite frankly most of the time I really don’t care.  Sure I would love the space, but I don’t notice once I am asleep.  And they tend to sleep through the night without interruption when they are in my bed.  (At least I don’t think they wake up!)

There are times when I wish they would sleep in their own beds, but in the end, what does it matter?   I know that they won’t be sleeping in my bed forever, so why not let them sleep with me now?  In 10 years my son will deny that it ever happened, and my daughter will most likely have someone else to sleep with!  There will be plenty of time for me to sleep alone.  So, I admit it, my kids sleep in my bed!

Do yours???

Iz

A little bit about depression…

So, clearly I am depressed.  And no I don’t want counseling or drugs.  Depression runs in my family and I am used to standing on top of the cliff and talking myself down.  I know I am very fortunate even though life sucks right now.   I have actually had a great life up to this point and for that I am very grateful. 

But depression sucks.  It has a way of playing tricks on you and holding you back from being your true self.  As the mom, I also have to wonder how my current depression effects my children.  (effects or affects ~ I can never get this one right!!)   What do they pick up even when I act as if nothing is wrong?  I believe my son is oblivious, but my daughter and I are very connected and I think she picks up on my mood and  adopts it as her own.  She has been a little blue lately, so could it be me or is it really her??? 

I am realizing lately that as a stay at home mom, I haven’t been doing them the justice that they deserve.  By that I mean that if I am not at my best then how can they be at their best?  When I was working, I was more on top of things and thrived on the busyness of the day.  Now I am not busy and pretty much a piece of crap.  My daughter even pulled out some of my old work clothes and asked me why I never wore them and why I don’t wear makeup anymore.  Hmmmm…,. Out of the mouths of babes!  She is right, I don’t wear “Cool” clothes and makeup anymore.  I guess when you don’t have anywhere to go, you just stop trying. 

So, depression has effected my kids and me.   And of course my relationship with their father, my husband is strained as well.  We aren’t communicating well and I am just plain angry.   I don’t want to live in the middle of nowhere anymore and I want a job where I get to wear cool clothes and makeup.  More than anything, I want to make my own living again.  I hate living off of my husband and just don’t want to do it anymore.  It makes me crazy, more crazy than I am usually!!!  

So I am  beginning a path back to wellness, emotionally, physically, and mentally.  Wish me luck!!  Oh, also enjoy the ride as I write about the daily grind of working my way out of the hole I have dug for myself.  My life is an open book, learn from it. 

Iz

New Rants on the way!

So, writing every day didn’t work out this week!  I am so busy fielding calls from creditors wanting money that I just don’t have much time right now.  It is like knock it off!  I am looking for a job frantically and the phone rings off the hook with these people.  They suck.  And there isn’t anything I can tell them right now.  Hey I am unemployed and have no money coming in.  How about giving me a 4 month reprieve?   HAHAHAHAHAHA  Not happening.   They of course understand that I am experiencing a hardship right now, but they want their money.   I get that, but I don’t have any to send. 

So, I end up having to call one of those get out of debt with our help companies.  Not sure what they are all about, but what I gather is that they work with the companies you owe money and try to negotiate a settlement for less the amount you owe.  Which by the way, I could actually do myself!!  But anyway, they work with them and you pay them, then they pay the credit companies.  So, I really don’t want to do that, but I am running out of options.  When your credit sucks, no one will give you credit, so getting a consolidation loan is out.  Even a second mortgage is out.  Leaving you pretty much high and dry.  (Remember this – credit cards are evil!!!!)   But they did help me keep my kids fed when I didn’t have money to go to the store.  But still, now they are pure evil!!!  

So I digress.  When I asked this company who is going to help me get free from debt how the program works, like do they make the payments for me, or do they pay it all off and then I pay them??    The answer I got made me wonder what the hell do I need them for?  The most important issue for me is:  MAKE THE CALLS STOP!!!  So I ask will the calls stop coming?  Guess what…..nope!  I turn the situation over to them, and the calls keep coming to me.  So, my credit keeps getting shitty throughout the whole time I am with them.  They don’t pay off the statements that I owe, they just manage the money and do exactly what I can do without them.  So, what is the advantage?????  Hmmmm….NONE!!!!!  

So, I wasted my time with that adventure.  But I guess the old lesson learned is still true:  IF IT IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE, THEN IT IS!  DANGER!  DANGER!  STAY AWAY!!!!

Next rant coming:  I almost had a job, but my personality got in the way!

Happy New Prez Day!

Last political post this season.  I’m not really into politics anyway.   So happy Obama day to all, and hopefully he will be our one ray of hope in this uncertain time.  Tomorrow I will start blogging about life in general.  I have vowed to blog daily, since I don’t have a job and am so bored with life right now, there are plenty of rants going through my mind.  I will blog about anything and everything, so I hope you enjoy my madness. 

But today, I am filled with hope that we get on the right track as a country and as a people.   Pulling together now is so very important, and we all should have in common the future of this country.  We all should care; even when we don’t.    So, let’s get it together people!  Support our prez through this difficult time.  After all, I wouldn’t want his job for all the money in the world, and I am poor!!!!!!!  

Have a great Obama day!

Look forward to ranting tomorrow!

 

iz

Why can’t Hillary just sit down and shut the “F” up!

I swear I can’t stand to see her on TV talking to a small room of supporters and telling them how she doesn’t quit.  She doesn’t quit.  Brilliant.   The numbers are against her.  The party is divided.  She is looking pretty stupid at this point of the race.  Bill isn’t much better.  He wants back there so bad they had to pull him for awhile just so he would shut up. 

Is there anyone else out there that finds her unwillingness to “give up” a problem?  Why would I vote for someone with so little judgement as to be unable to know that it’s time!  What is wrong with her? 

Why in the world would this country with all it’s problems want to sign up for 8 more years of the same crap.  Democrat, Republican, same shit, different views.  Both sides operate the same way, but they just have different viewpoints about the issues.  America is so ready for an Independent candidate.  If someone who kicked ass got into the race, they would have one hell of an opportunity to impact this race. 

I so want Obama to be different.  I hope he is.    He seems different.  He seems so common sense.  He seems like he really can make a difference.  Damn I hope he can. 

People have said to me that he doesn’t have enough experience.  I really don’t give a shit about his experience.  In fact, I find his lack of experience exactly what we need right now.  It’s not like there aren’t plenty of people surrounding a president that can help to advise him.  His only job is to make the decision.   He appears intelligent enough to do that. 

Just seeing Hillary on TV anymore makes me want to puke.  What about loosing in the numbers, popular vote, delegates and super delegates does she not understand??  Now that John Edwards has endorsed Obama, you would think that she would finally step aside.  10 -1 she doesn’t!?!?!?! 

Oh Yeah, by the way, I am an Independent!  AND YES WE CAN!!!!!!  GO OBAMA!

Namaste!

 

Who Is Izzy Martin Anyway?

I sort of feel like breaking into song ~ The Joker by the Steve Miller Band ~ Remember that?  YES I did just totally date myself!  (Maybe ~ maybe not?)  I’m a joker, I’m a smoker, I’m a midnight toker…I sure don’t want to hurt on one.  So, if I wrote my own lyrics, how would I write them?  Hmmm something else to think about!!  

I’m Izzy.  And I am crazy.  (Hi Izzy ~ your response)  I live in the middle of nowhere, and with gas prices so damn high right now, I just don’t have anyone to talk to anymore.  So I figure I will start a blog and talk to myself and anyone who wants to read my random comments about things in the world, things in my secluded strech of the universe, and whatever else that pops up in my head.  (which really could be the most interesting of all!) 

So, I live in the midwest on an acreage surrounded by corn fields.  Yes, as I look out the window of my little farm house, I am surrounded by space with little else.  I have two children whose sole mission in life is to make me insane. (actually more insane than I am already)  I have a husband who thinks I am crazy, but he loves me anyway.  (which is really something when you look around at relationships today) 

We have horses, dogs, cats, and plenty of other animals that I most likely don’t want to know about.  I stay at home and take care of the kids and animals, and generally go crazy insane on a daily basis.  My husband is on the road during the week and home on weekends, so it’s just me and the kids during the week.  When the kids are at school, then it’s just me and the dogs.  We hang ~ so would they be my posse?? 

I used to live in a city, with a 6 figure salary job, starbucks coffee, cool shopping, and sophisticated friends.  So what the hell happened here you’re asking???  Yeah, me too.  I am still working on how it all came to be that my sophisticated friends turned into 4 legged dogs, but I’m not obsessed with it.  It is what it is, and I am where I need to be right now, and que sara, que sara as Doris used to sing…   But I will tell you this, those dogs, they really got my back and I am pretty sure that when I walk away, they aren’t talking smack about me!   

So, that’s if for now about IZZY.  Now I am going to rant and rave about shit that probably isn’t that important, but you never know something may resonate with you.  Enjoy my blog, and if you really like it, buy me a Venti Caramel Mach!!!!! 

NAMASTE!!!